The problem with broken hearts is not because a person chose to love.  Broken hearts exist due to empty promises, of lies masked in sweet conversations.  The problem with broken hearts perhaps is that some minds are too fiddle to decipher lies from sincere statements.  The problem with broken hearts is that some people are just too cold-hearted, they just play and play with the other person’s feelings.  The problem with broken hearts is that it’s difficult to recover from it.

I am no expert in love.  After all, I’ve only had one boyfriend so far.  But that lasted so long and I can say that during the relationship I really did give it my all, I really did love and a part of me wanted it to last forever. But it didn’t. Ten months after the break up I can say that I have fully recovered from the scars of that relationship.  But at the same time, I know that I have become a commitment-phobe. 

How the relationship ended and the boys I am surrounded with have made me stronger.   I am now stronger and better in controlling my emotions.  Before, words would sway me easily since admittedly I am pretty easy to please.  But now, I have become more intelligent.  Which is why I have realized that there is no point in yearning for a serious, long term relationship at this point in my life.  It seems that I’d have to extend my one year rest period from relationships and guys in general.  I have a lot of guy friends and I can say that at our age, they really aren’t mature enough to sustain a long-term, committed relationship.  They’re still too enthralled by the thrill of women and sex, of alcohol, drugs, gambling and what not.  I’m not saying that they aren’t great boys because they are. I love my friends to death but I wouldn’t want to be their girlfriend! Not right now anyways. I have observed that guys mature, or more aptly put, get over the playing and the vices once they reach the age of 26. So, if ever I’m committing next year or in the coming years, it has to be to someone older, or at least someone who’s over that playing and vices stage.

Either way, I am not in a hurry to commit, nor am I in a hurry to have my heart broken all over again. Besides, I am not mature enough to handle a committed, mature relationship.  Neither am I patient enough to go dating. Haha I don’t like the hassle of it all.  I guess I’m really not into boys right now.

To all broken hearts, fix yourself. Fix it with laughter, with love from friends and family. And do not love when you are not ready. Do not give away your heart when it is still mending.

And to the meanies out there, quit playing.  Quit your lies and empty promises. You wouldn’t want karma to hit you, would you?